making my own fun

So I've decided that making my own fun isn't as difficult as i thought it was. Normally I go somewhere and if the scene sucks or there isn't anyone there i dont have very much fun. But lately I have been having so much fun no matter where I go! I've just let go of everything that normally holds me back and just did my own thing regardless of what ppl around me are doing. It is the greatest feeling to be able to look back and know that I had fun because I wanted to so I did.
Some examples:
I went to a church latin dance in Mesa, I used to go to them all the time and I knew that the excitement level is always a toss up. I've been to ones where there are so many ppl you barely find room to move, but tonight was not like this. There was no one there!! What happened, everyone must have decided to stay home or something. I was a little embarassed because I brought a friend and promised him fun. But it ended up that I didnt even dance with my friend very much because I kept getting swept away by guys who were excited to see me after so long. Also the music sucked, but oh well, i still danced.
Aimee also came with us, but got tired of it fast and went and sat in her car. So after the dance was over we wanted to go swimming. Well aimee wanted to go swimming so I just decided to jsut go and see what happened. So we got our suits on and everything but when we got to where we were going to swim, the pool was closed for remodeling!! What a bummer! But alas i was having my own fun because all I wanted to do was sing songs to myself and I was happy. So we sat by a little pond and looked at the sky. It was so nice, i could have stayed there all night. The offer to was made but Aimee would never go for leaving me there alone with him.

So then the next day:
Last night was so much fun! I went to my wards pool party and I actually swam! Being in a bathing suit in front of ppl always makes me nervous but it was worse that it wasnt my normal bathing suit but a make shift one cause I left mine in a bag, wet, in the hot car for a long time and it didnt smell too good... I think I'm going to color safe bleach it. So I put on an old suit top with my bra on underneath and some shorts and thats what I swam in. Oh and I forgot my towel, I had two towels all ready to go and walked out with out them, only me right!
Ppl were having all kinds of fun. They were jumping around and splashing and I was smiling and happy. The only thing that I didnt like was how boys would dunk you under even when you seriously aere telling them that you dont want them to! Listen up boys... THAT IS NOT FLIRTING IT IS JUST ANNOYING!!!! but other than that I made many new friends out of the ppl that I already was aquanted with. I am sad that I didnt get to attend church today so that I can continue to build relationships with ppl in my ward. I am so excited to become more active and known. I am like the person that everyone has heard of or seen at some point but never met officially. Well hopefully that will change.
Well I cant wait to see what fun i will have next. And remember that fun is what you make it!!

Oh one more thing... For the party I made the most delicious cookies with my waffle maker! They were chocolate waffle cookies! YUM YUM